Seen

Seen
For the lies I’ve told
Though my eyes told the truth.
And my heart yearned that you know
with out my saying.

Seen
For the smiles you mocked
Though my heart was warmed
With the thoughts you found
To be low

Seen
For the tears
I needn’t have shed
‘Cause I thought there was more wrong
Than there ever had to be

Yet I made the anger real
I made the tears a joke
I made the laughter die
I made the lies belie
What I wanted you to know.
This is a paradox of expression
In that I let you see
what I was not,
I let myself conform
To the shape of your eyes.
Forgive me though
you may not.
I still choose
To forgive myself.

26th April 2010