Time

1-12-2005

Time is passing
forever harassing
my ever-emptying life

Here I am wasting
time, while I’m waiting
for never arriving joy

Now I am fighting
to put into writing
my ever-wondering soul.

By P.L. Rao

Active

I think that I have just discovered a great key to my problems. Being active. I am happy and get a lot of things solved and done when I am active. And I think I am usually unhappy when I am unhappy. I feel so good when I feel like am at the start af an active season. I feel like I have more control. I think part of the thing that brought me to this idea and state is an experiment on the statement "The time is always now" It stopped me from avoiding the doing-it-later problem and got me to do stuff now. Which, of course, translates to my being ACTIVE. I feel the most alive right now when I am active and feel like I can do so much stuff. Right now. I don't have to wait till I the summer vacation ar when I am 'older'. I feel alive like a river coming of a stagnant marsh. If only I could stay like this forever, I think, but I can if I stay like this if I stay aware. If only I could make this letter send it to me as an answer to my problem when I need it. A song that would be quite accurate for this post would be 'Stuck in the moment' by U2 on their album 'All that you can't leave behind'. So here I go. The time is NOW.

Red Lily

Yesu, the patient flower
that blooms is slow motion
Yesu, the fantasy
of all the flowing dreams
Yesu, the love
that flows through the body
Yesu, the soul
that calms my beating heart

Yesu is here, and forever will be
till he raises the Sun and again let it shine
on this life of your daughter Priyanka.
And again he will wake her
to a new life awaiting
With a gush of hot blood
through her veins.
жא☼Ж☼אж
-P.L.Rao
16th October 2006

Thought Hunger
I want to think . . . and think and never stop thinking. I want to have a mind that can grow and live and be whole. Right now there are way too many people who are living completely thoughtless lives and don't do anything because of what they think and then they go to the grave and its The End. Ah, but what if you are living that life and you suddenly realize where you are? You would feel trapped and would want to escape life. But life is for changing. For doing things the way you want so that you can help the world be a little bit better. Thats what I will do. I will make myself complete and I will use myself to build and create the way I think will be good.