Survival

Dying
Letting be
what is, I am hanging
by a tree.
Life twists me
and shakes me
It wants me to scream,
So I scream out loud
for the mountains to hear
But feel nothing.
I am singing
through the winds
Breathing
is all that is left
to my heart
so I am breathing in every hope
and breathing out every thought
and leaving nothing
for my stomach to digest;
My heart is beating
like a slow poison-
and the days are passing
through a bus window
to some other place …
But nothing can take me away;
I am not going
anywhere.

Priyanka
18th Feb. 2009

Suicide

Falling through the curtains of water to a pool
thousand feet below . . -
I see it in the fishes eyes
the redness of change, perhaps shock
before the splash
of cold ending
that will be mine,
hopefully before
I ever feel I need it
I’m breathing
Stopping
Screaming
as loud as it goes
as far as the sky
I’m sending out
nothing more
than a wave.

Priyanka
31 Jan. 2009

Leaving

I say to the sun
as it runs me by
if it will stay
to say goodbye.
'Oh no, I never do.
Because I am a flame
And I ride by round and round
blazing through the stars
You see me
when you're eyes
are open
looking for a ride
to the skies.'
So I said yes.
I see you coming; I see you going
I will be there
at the neck of the next wind,
and follow the flame
of your ruthless eyes
but for now,
I will say it for you
Good Bye.

P.L. Rao
1st Feb. 2009